Legacy

The girls have started using new names for each other, and I think they are much more fun than using initials to refer to them, so I am introducing Sissy and CatCat on my blog today. I love being their mommy but from time to time I struggle with the mundaneness of the tasks of motherhood. Who doesn't? But today I am reminded that they are my legacy- hopefully not my only legacy, but they are the ones I will most likely have the most impact on in my lifetime. That's a weighty truth, isn't it? God knows I will screw up, albeit unintentionally, as I mother them. I pray though that they will know to whom they ultimately belong, that they will rest in and receive the perfect love that the Father offers them, and with it bless the world around them. They certainly bless me everyday. The words to this song, especially the chorus, really struck me as I was listening to it in the car the other day and pondering the brevity of life.

I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy

When I get caught up in the mundanenss of the everyday, my perspective is skewed because I am not seeing my life as part of the bigger picture. I really want my occupation in life to be bringing glory to God wherever I am. I really do want to bless His name unapologetically because He is worthy of all the honor and praise and glory that I can give and way, way more than that. But I am asking myself lately, "Is my life really bringing glory to the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords?" "Not enough" is the response that will always answer that question because He is worthy of so much more than just my life, so I pray that the lives that I leave behind will bring Him more glory after mine is finished. Do you know what blesses me beyond measure? - when I hear Sissy and CatCat in the backseat singing "How Great Is Our God" or "Mighty to Save", hearing Sissy tell her memory verse for the week, "Tell people everywhere about Jesus." Matthew 28:19, and listening to her pray every night for our friends in France to come to know Jesus. I am blessed by God with those two little girls but I am blessed for the purpose of being a blessing. Now there's a seriously weighty truth!

"God blesses us (in order) that all the ends of the earth may fear Him."
Psalm 67:7