Bailey didn't make it through the night at the vet's. D brought her home and we buried her in the garden that she loved to adventure out and explore in. My mom even carved a marker for the grave and we took flowers and put them there and thanked God for giving her to us. I know that all sounds melodramatic, but it has helped me deal with my sadness and feelings of guilt. It is still hard though. I cried through the verse of "Old MacDonald" with SA today when she wanted to sing "Old MacDonald had a kitty cat". I keep anticipating that I am going to see Bailey at the door or the kitchen window meowing to come in or out and then remembering that she is gone. I don't know what to do with the cat food that I just bought and it was hard to pass the pet aisle at the grocery store today.
College days, first job frustrations, and my parent's divorce, seminary days, dating D, marrying D, first pregnancy, first baby, moving to a foreign country, living in a foreign country while my husband travels, second pregnancy, second baby... These are all things Bailey was with me through. She was always there with me cuddling up close- in the good times and the hard times. I miss her. I don't know if kitty cats go to heaven, but I hope so. If they do, I know that Bailey is there.
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I am sorry and saddened to hear about Bailey, my former housemate. It must be very difficult adjusting without her distinctive meowing - :) She was without a doubt your faithful confidante and provided a much needed outlet for your nerves over the years - guess I should have taken advantage of Bailey's calmness too, instead of the Xanax. You were very good to her, so try to release any guilt. Perhaps you could use her food to feed a neighborhood stray in her honor. Much love and hang in there. AFB
Cats go to heaven. I'm sure she is there with all the loved kitties and pups through out the ages that have taught us about unconditional love. You won't forget her.
I am SO sorry to hear about Bailey. She has been with you through the long haul. So sorry. I will pray for you and that it will get easier.
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